A Favourite Song from a New Perspective

This afternoon I put on my headphones and listened to some of my favourite songs for a little relaxation and inspiration.  The song "I Won't Give Up" by Jason Mraz came on, and usually I think of it as a beautiful love song about a couple who truly appreciate what they have together.  Today, however, as I was listening, I suddenly connected with the song from a totally different emotional perspective.  Certain lines from this song felt a lot like what I've been going through with Ryan since we started Unity!   I'm finding it hard to put into words, but it really hit me emotionally, and I can't get it out of my head.  I put the lyrics below, and italicized the lines that particularly speak to me about my recent experiences with Ryan.  

 

 

"I Won't Give Up"

When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
Well, there's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

Well, I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got, yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not, and who I am

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up, still looking up.

Well, I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)
God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

 

To hear the music, visit http://youtu.be/XLOMvPC1EzQ

 

This song makes me think about how stressful it is sometimes, but I'm willing to do anything I can to help Ryan reach his full potential. When I look in his beautiful eyes, I see such brightness in them.  I am learning a lot about my strengths and weaknesses in this journey, and about how many people love us and want to help us.  I want to help Ryan find his strengths and gifts.  We have already come so far, but we still have so much to learn.  Unity only lasts for 12 weeks;  I will be Ryan's mom forever.  Our journey will last a lifetime.  There will be many struggles, but "I won't give up./ God knows [Ryan's] worth it"!